Summer is here girls. Here are the perfections I have planned.
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eating fruits late at night with ur window open
Been doing this with my girlfriend we sit cross legged on my bed knees together bowl of fruit between us. Clementines strawberries cherries. It’s always around 2am (the time for all secret lovers) and the fruit stains our mouths the night breeze drops stars into our laps.
praying the rosary (especially the Fatima prayer and just thinking about Mary)
I like the rosary a lot. I like the meditation of it, the way your mouth moves through the prayers until it’s like Mary’s name is echoing in your bones, your hands sliding bead to bead. I like the Fatima prayer a lot, because I like the idea of mercy and I like the idea that we are all saved, even if we don’t know enough about God. The Fatima prayer goes O My Jesus, forgive us our sins, save us from the fires of hell, lead all souls to Heaven, especially those in most need of Thy mercy. Amen. and I like that, I like the saving of those in most need of saving. I’ve never prayed the rosary with someone else before but I’ve been thinking about it, how nice that would be. When R comes home I might teach it to her, I think she would like it. In the summer it’s like sinking into a warm bath, to kneel and pray it in the hot nights.
really big t shirts
THINK about it you in a really big plain t shirt and like jeans or shorts or a skirt whatever but the main thing is really big plain t shirt and you’re walking to the corner store to get a popsicle or a can of pop isn’t that so SUMMER isn’t it PERFECT.
THE OCEAN
Gonna go visit R she lives by the ocean and we will put our heads underwater and it’ll all be perfect.
making a pot of tea and sitting on the floor and drinking it all while writing
This has been a really good vibe lately. Make a pot of jasmine tea (if it’s in your mom’s really old teapot that she brought from wherever she’s from it’s better) and drink the whole thing while writing and write until you need to pee.
soul bonds and soul ties
A says SOUL TIE whenever we have something really specific in common and N says SOUL BOND about everyone she loves but especially me she calls me soul bond girl I’ll be her soul bond girl forever! Have soul bonds with your friends soul ties with your lovers!!!
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long hair
I chopped off all my hair a month ago and got sad because I used to braid it and wrap it around my head. I just realized now that I can braid it back and put it in weird little buns and it’s wispy and strange and truly what are you doing if not cutting your hair in wispy strange ways.
skincare
Kill me crucify me influencer girlies I respect the grind but I’m back on my splash water on my face and run into my day type beat. Sunscreen is NOT out though wear your sunscreen babes.
big publishers (fuck the literary scene)
Been writing a lot the past few days and thinking I should just print out my writing and put in the free libraries they have all over my city. FUCK big literary scenes prestigious literary mags and big publishing houses are full of shit I’m sorry but it is so true. Make your art and give it to people it’s what art was meant for.
going to bed early
Again, kill me crucify me. Whatever. I like nighttime. Is your life longer with more sleep if you sleep through the extra years anyway? (I know that’s terrible please ignore me and sleep I will sit here and watch the moon and have no regrets).